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Friday, October 28, 2005

Fri, 28 Oct 2005 16:30:16 GMT

I can never feel loved again....

Who can bring back my smile again??

Sunday, May 29, 2005

Sun, 29 May 2005 04:23:35 GMT

23 mins past 1pm...

If only I could fall in love again.....

Bryan, I'm really sorry... I have hurt you deep enough to hate me..

Once again, I'm truly sorry...

Monday, May 23, 2005

Mon, 23 May 2005 10:11:20 GMT

11 mins past 7pm... Can't deny I do miss U...

U made ME believe in fate, U made ME know what love is. I wanted so much to take UR hand and walk through all that is ahead..

I was never given a chance.. If U tell me U will be back, I'll wait for U till the end of time.. I am wrong... U never wanted to come back.. Can U imagine how hurtful can it be when I learnt that U r never mine to begin with..

If this is what I get in return for many years of waiting, I will never want to carry on.. I am letting U go for good coz I really love U...

U should know WE can never be frenz.

Do allow me to lead my own life...

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 12:54:45 GMT

Feeling lousy right now.. U seem too good to be true.. Your warmth and unresponsiveness towards me are making me crazy...

Why do I love U more than I love myself???

What should I do??

Sunday, April 24, 2005

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 04:45:55 GMT

It's hard to take back MY love.. Somehow I am rather glad to know the outcome though it is kinda evil... Just to let U know, I will wait for U endlessly.. Hopefully U won't disappoint me again coz I am madly in love with U...

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 15:27:35 GMT

All U need is to take the first step and I will run towards U, I will throw myself on U.. I will hug U tight and never will I let go... I have always been waiting for this first step of URS.. and I have no idea when will I stop waiting or when will I collapse...

I might look strong outside, however I am weak inside.. I am not as strong as what U see.. U have been breaking my heart and amending it, breaking and amending over and over again.. When are U going to stop?

I am blind to have fallen in love with U!!..

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 09:59:14 GMT

3mins to 7pm...

Listening to "As Long As You Love Me" by Backstreet Boys...

"Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm leaving my life in your hands
People say I'm crazy and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance

And how you got me blind is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me

I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me

I've tried to hide it so that no one knows
But I guess it shows
When you look into my eyes
What you did and where you're comin' from
I don't care, as long as you love me, baby"

Missing U deeply right now... WE have not contacted each other for quite some time.. I know what situation U r in now... Just wanna let U know, regardless of what, I want to be by UR side.. I just want U to know I am not going to care about what happens now or what is going to happen. I only care how U feel towards ME... Is UR love I am desiring for...

Don't hurt ME... I can't take it anymore....

Monday, April 11, 2005

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 12:59:51 GMT

10pm sharp...

When you interact with another, an illusion is part of this dynamic. This illusion allows each soul to perceive what it needs to understand in order to heal.

How I wish I am a gal without much emotions. How I wish I can just let go of all my feelings... I had cried enough.. We are just not meant to be... It hurts to know that the outcome is not what I longed for...

Do U think it will help by not contacting each other? U know I will miss U deeply... Can U ease my pain for just one more time?

Saturday, April 09, 2005

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 11:18:34 GMT

5mins to 8pm... Listening to "Cradle" by Atomic Kittens.

"I was only thinking of you,
Hoping you were thinking of me,
Two hearts beating just like one,
Against the world
Baby...

I am always dreaming of you,
Hoping you are dreaming of me,
I could never live,
One day without your love.

I will kiss you like an angel, baby,
Cradled in my wings
I will take you up to heaven,
Show you precious things."

How have U been?? Really miss U alot...

When can I get to see U again??

Just wanna let U know I never regret choosing this path of life...

Sunday, April 03, 2005

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 07:31:54 GMT

When a person is in a relationship, it doesn't mean he/she is happy with it.. If the other half is not the person you love, no way to be happy...

For U:
If a gal loves U truly, she will wait for U endlessly... She will adapt to your surroundings, accommodating with U... What she is waiting for is the 3-words "I Love U"... She is willing to give up anything just for U... She doesn't mind being hinder or watsoever... As long as U r with her, she is more than happy...

Love can't measure by time but by feelings... It is hard to create the first feeling, to fade away the feeling is not an easy task, once the feeling is gone and U want to find it back, U will find it very tedious...

I am not elated at all... Don't give your blessing to this relationship, it hurts to receive UR blessing...